Paul Haeder, Author

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I’m thinking hard about how many men I run into that have deeply entrenched and insane ideas about women, about their own self-worth tied to calling them the evil sex or drilling through their own Homo Sapiens’ minds the mysogyny of Satanic sickness.

Picking up the pieces of another spousal abuse “situation,” again, same story, left, returned, left, returned, etc., but now, back with the evil man. And, alas, the pattern for just 5 years with this fellow is one of constant leaving, and returning. Extreme belittling, put downs, overt hate for a woman who he professed to marry. It’s textbook, sure, but up close and personal, the pain caused by one man, in his macho, American, former college dude’s alcoholism, man, I take it personally . . . as a human, as a man.

Now, though, restraining order, court appearance, he’s charged and in jail for attempted murder, strangulation, using a weapon (pillow) to subdue. His goal as he stated on the phone recording was to kill her.

I know about this fellow, and he drinks daily, is a big dude im his mind (not really big) and it turns out his old man spanked and beat the crap out of him and his brother when they were young, and started giving the boy shots of booze at age 13. A big shot Air Force pilot, and this is the quality of a lot of military. This fellow carries that with him, and in college, a complete asshole, drunk, and then, he has the ability to do a Ted Bundy charm, but he is a boozer, vomits twice a day, and he’s 38 years old. Now he’s in jail, he failed to get on the arraignment phone, so he had to be given a phone in the cell as he cried and cried like a baby.

I see the sickness of hating women daily in the media, in the movies, and in oour politics. The sneaking in of sadism in the name of poetic license in all the movies, all the books and dramas. Imagine that, the SCOTUS, and that sick tribe of men, and now women, who want to pound the uterus of universal woman into ground meat . . . fodder for their Anglo Saxon, Rule of Law bag of evil tricks.

It is the evil of men, war, the evil of the Anglo Saxon, too, that is weighing on me. I have this little inkling of revisionist fervor everyday, too, with the absolute blatant lies of Empire, again, from the Anglo-saxons, the Caucasians, and their evil, even perpetrated upon half my family lineage, the Irish, in what is the Food Removal program of the British causing famine, in what has always been the superb lie of the so-called Irish potato famine.

So much of the lies of the empires, so much, has to be righted, fixed, exposed. An aside that speaks of the perversion and sickness and violence of men, the Brits, in totality, just for Ireland:

Note the Malthusianism in the title, and that theory of “too many people on earth,” well, just again heralded in as an earth supposedly now hitting Eight Billion people, in what is called an explosion, a swelling, tsunami, a wave, an outbreak, investation, etc. Here, the marker and the book cover for this most interesting of looks at the Irish Potato Famine (sic).

Lots of “visuals” on this swelling of the world’s population:

It makes so much sense that we see USA and EuroTrashLandia itching for nuclear war with China, Iran, Russia. It makes so much sense we are in this sick misanthropic world of misogynists. Minute by minute, the bombing, the famines, the water poisoning, the entire project of a unipolar world, run by one of he most despicable countries in the world, of course, USA is UK on steroids, so it’s difficult to erase that fact.

The level of brainwashing and propaganda now, in 2022, in a world so-called so-connected, so open for people to actually pry open the chests of lies that have filled ships and train cars for centuries, for a thousand years, that is also remarkable. A series of scripts, and any deviation, that is verboten.

Just that Jewish question comes up too, as an interesting aside. Here, the jokes:

So in this flippant world of comedy, with a large kernel of truths and politics, we already have the racist Jewish and Zionist organizations going after Dave.

Comedian Dave Chappelle didn’t mention the controversy swirling around his hosting “Saturday Night Live” this week during the show’s monologue — but he did poke fun at the backlash rapper Kanye West is facing.

Chappelle’s appearance reportedly sparked a boycott from some of SNL’s writers stemming from jokes he made about trans people in a 2021 Netflix special.

He started with a prepared statement and an apology, but it wasn’t what some might have expected.

“I denounce anti-Semitism in all its forms and stand with my friends in the Jewish community,” Chappelle said.

“And that, Kanye, is how you buy yourself some time.”

“I’ve been doing this for 35 years and something I learned early in my career, is there are two words in the English language you should never say together in sequence: ‘The’ and ‘Jews,’” he said.

Chappelle said Kanye is “possibly not well,” but doesn’t think he is crazy.

Imagine that, uh, and then the racist ADL comes out with this:

“We shouldn’t expect @DaveChappelle to serve as society’s moral compass, but disturbing to see @nbcsnl not just normalize but popularize #antisemitism.” ADL CEO Jonathan Greenblatt said Sunday.

Jewish rights activist Rudy Rochman called the SNL skit “a meticulous & calculated move to desensitize the population from anti-Semitism” while Time Out New York theater editor Adam Feldman argued, “That Dave Chappelle SNL monologue probably did more to normalize anti-Semitism than anything Kanye said.”

It just gets played over and over and over, that these racists, these fascists, would be spinning their webs of lies tied to a comic poking fun here, and poking fun there. Imagine all the shows, all the books, all the comedy skits, all the dramas, all the textbooks, all of it, somehow, those that are put through the Jewish strainer, that those are the works of a concerted attempt to control all narratives.

“I’ve been to Hollywood — don’t want you to get mad at me, I’m just telling you I’ve been to Hollywood, this is just what I saw,” he also said. “It’s a lot of Jews.”

Dave Chappelle delivers the opening monologue.
Dave Chappelle delivers the opening monologue.

“Like a lot. But that doesn’t mean anything, you know what I mean? There are a lot of black people in Ferguson, Missouri, it doesn’t mean we run the place.”

He added the “delusion that Jews run show business” was not crazy to think, but “it’s a crazy thing to say out loud at a time like this.”

Is this unique to Jews, Zionists, Israel? Of course not, but it is in their policy, and looking at murder in Mexico is interesting from the Mexican value system, how these kids become hitmen, etc. Same for Israel. What would motivate Israeli Zionists, in uniform and out of uniform, to murder kids, grandparents, those in wheelchairs, and to kill the messenger. Sort of the Saudi treatment: Jamal Ahmad Khashoggi 

A new forensic analysis proves that an Israeli sniper could see that Shireen Abu Akleh was a journalist before firing the bullet that killed her.

This is a man’s world, no?

I was at the court hearing, or initial appearance, and I’ve done this on so many occasions tied to my newspaper reporter duties. It’s still triggering, because almost all are men in jail, and the entire cadre are in some form of substance abuse, and that means legal toxins, booze, and driving, and it is a pitiful event, since many of these guys (and a few gals today) are products of that same messed up, broken, disfunctional, abusive homes. Fodder for the billionaire class to call them useless breathers, useless humans, trash, worthy of gulag, and many I have talked to, gasoline in the veins.

Defense attorneys, judges, cops, jailers, public defenders, the entire shit show is a circus from dreams for a requiem, and lives interrupted, and the beat-down lives of babies and boys and girls turning into teens, and the cycle of addiction, and stupidity, and lack of learning skills, all of that, plus a school to prison pipeline, plus no good work, few mentors, terrible cities, hell holes for so many, and we are at this point of more people incarcerated in the world, plus a hundred million Americans who have had some dealing with the law, both criminal and civil. So many more losing driver’s licenses for debts, not DUI’s.

My friend had to sit through 30 of these hearings, and then her old man, crying like a pathetic person, and I know it was part of his show. Poor me, and, I am a drunk, and I can’t remember a thing about that Friday evening.

SO, men are evil, and think of how evil Ukraine is, how evil the marketers are in that country, the evil of media, the evil of USA and EU, the evil of lies, and turning people, Russians, into dirty monsters. The fact is, the Russians are giving mutual aid, food, supplies to people. Ukrainians? Never, and murdering and torturing anyone with a Russian aid package. Oh, the horror of that Jewish pipsqueak, a comic, coke problem, running this Gestapo. The dirty bomb WAS a plan by this Jewish boy. Now the US admits. The biolabs? The staged torture to turn Russia into a terrorist state, when the fact is UkroAzovNaziLandia is that.

Ukraine takes credit for helping the zoo, but it’s the RUSSIANS.

“They Were Abandoned and Scared”

Under shelling from Ukrainian military, residents of Kherson continue to evacuate to safer lands in Russian-controlled territories. Not just the human residents of Kherson, but many animals as well.

The Russian army on Saturday helped to escort 18 furry and feathered residents of the Kherson zoo, which is located on the island of Maly Potemkin in the middle of the Dnieper River. The animals were in danger of flooding because of threats to the nearby Kakhovskaya hydroelectric dam, which has already been shelled by encroaching Ukrainian military.

According to RIA Novosti, the animals were evacuated by ferry to the Crimean Peninsula, on Russian territory, where they will soon be housed at the Taigan lion park, located in Belogorsk. The park offers “safaris” to young and old enthusiasts who pass through in trams and take photos.

Men are evil, and plotting, and full of hate for animals, people, children. Not all, of course, but a huge swath of them, especially those who are not of the land, sharing child care with their wives, and those close to nature. Those in Hedge Funds, those Military Men, those high end lawyers, and so many more men in Capitalism are fed hate in porn, pictures, stories, movies, sports, politicians and the cops and judges and DAs who are out to get women.

Of course women can become men like men. Hillary, Nuland, Thatcher, Albright, Madam Marcos or Peron or . . . .

The evil is in the male gene, and it is a sleeper gene, a gene that can be awakened by the dirty and horror and lessons of Capitalism. See you in a courtroom nearby.

Why Men Rape: Perspectives From Incarcerated Rapists in a KwaZulu-Natal Prison, South Africa

Rape culture is as American as apple pie — We live in a society in which sexual violence is so normalized that one in 16 women lost their virginity through rape

Women who kill in response to domestic violence: How do criminal justice systems respond?

Contemporary capitalism breeds a destructive society

Five behaviors that perpetuate toxic capitalism

Capitalism Fosters Gang Behavior 

Oh, the list goes on and on. So, I got stuck watching the series, The English.

We are talking a difficult thing for me because I do not like British or English movies or TV drama. I avoid them big time. I have a hard time with mainstream anything. I will not watch yet another to the 1,000th degree a Holocaust movie, or a movie from Israel. Very very difficult to watch the Brits, for obvious reasons. Australian movies? Well, that’s a tough one, but again, it’s the UK (and I have lived in Edingburg and traveled to family in England. I also have a tough time with British actors and actresses in other movies from other countries. But that’s my hang-up.

I have thousands of movies I have seen, and I have taught film and literature classes. But this series, the English, is romantic, and, yes, it’s about America, the frontier, 1870s and up to the early 1900s. The British coming into the west with the Cattle Baron ideas. Alas, though, a Pawnee Union Scout. And a hell of a lot of crazy Western images, stylized, different, and violent.

An epic chase Western, The English takes the core themes of identity and revenge to tell a uniquely compelling parable on race, power, and love. An aristocratic Englishwoman, Lady Cornelia Locke, and a Pawnee ex-cavalry scout, Eli Whipp, come together in 1890 middle America to cross a violent landscape built on dreams and blood. Both of them have a clear sense of their destiny, but neither is aware that it is rooted in a shared past. They must face increasingly terrifying obstacles that will test them to their limits, physically and psychologically. But as each obstacle is overcome, it draws them closer to their ultimate destination—the new town of Hoxem, Wyoming. It is here, after an investigation by the local sheriff Robert Marshall and young widow Martha Myers into a series of bizarre and macabre unsolved murders, that the full extent of their intertwined history will be truly understood, and they will come face-to-face with the future they must live.

The men here, the Anglo-Saxons, are perverted. The Native Americans are painted this way and that way, but at the end of the series, yes, the whites are from one world and the Indians from another. And that holds then and now.

I’m thinking the British Empire, and China and India and USA and, well, all the islands, the slave ships, all of that. The DNA is already baked into many of the people I run into today, hateful men, broken, not smart, held back by intellectual disabilities, CPTSD, all of that, and here we are, Capitalism as Inflammatory Disease.

2 thoughts on “Relearning as an Act of Sacrificing the Sacred — Inflammed!

  1. steppx says:

    one of your best.


    1. haederpaul says:

      Much appreciated for reading and commenting. Unfortunately, as the world goes up in flames, or goes into 24/7 365 days a year of insanity and accepted brainwashing, many more to follow. This domestic violence issue is sooooooooooooo large, sooooooooooooo real. And, as you know, it isn’t just “white” trash or “broken” blacks or “fatherless” Latinos involved in this viscious cycle. Daily, so-called middle of the road, well educated (college) and professionals — and mostly women, but once in a while, a male — are victims of this victimization, this Spousal Abuse Syndrome, and the entire culture is about berating, beating, and bullying. That is the standard bearer of Capitalism and other societies tied to Capital and Religion. Hate hate hate, and, funny thing is, my name, Haeder, originally Hader with an umlat, but I see Haider here and there, and in Arabic, well, I am a lion, man, not a “hater.”

      Haydar (Arabic: حيدر), also spelt Hajdar, Hayder, Heidar, Haider, Heydar, and other variants, is an Arabic male given name, also used as a surname, meaning “lion”.

      Staying a lion means presenting a roar, holding onto a pride, defining an amazing feline, but completely vulnerable to CAPITALISM and Guns, Germs and Steel.



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