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Not Pissed Off Yet? My Fucking Taxes Go to this Star of David Hells Angels on Crack Cocaine

and so the fucking U$A uniformed mercenaries, AKA, Pagans, the Outlaws, and the Bandidos in fucking camouflage, we throw fucking trillions for these cocksuckers????

Paulo Kirk

Feb 09, 2026

I am doing this because I am a human being, and I cannot remain silent in the face of injustice. I am doing this because I am a soldier and I cannot remain loyal to a government that betrays its own values and principles. I am doing this because I am a martyr and I cannot remain alive in a world that kills the innocent and protects the guilty.

I am doing this because I am Aaron Bushnell, and this is my final act of protest.

You owe me this witness.
I owe you flames.
—Kazim Ali

May be a black-and-white image

In a revelation that should horrify the world, Israel is actively preparing to carry out the mass execution of Palestinian captives it has been holding for years. This is not justice. It is cold-blooded, state-sponsored murder, dressed up in bureaucratic language and enabled by a bloodthirsty new death penalty law.

Reports emerging lay bare the Israeli Prison Service’s grotesque execution plan, approved in the shadow of a discriminatory law that essentially green-lights the killing of Palestinians. The details are chilling, calculated, and dripping with cruelty.

Israel is building an entire dedicated execution complex, a shiny new death factory designed solely to hang human beings. These will not be quick or merciful deaths. The regime has chosen hanging, but with a sick twist to soothe the guilty consciences of the killers: three guards will press buttons simultaneously so no single perpetrator has to live with the full knowledge that they dropped the trapdoor. How convenient. How utterly cowardly. This mechanical sleight of hand is nothing more than an attempt to launder the psychological stain of cold-blooded murder.

The IPS is planning to build a specialized facility for carrying out executions, referred to in reports as the “Israeli Green Mile” or a dedicated execution complex.

A delegation from the Ministry of National Security, headed by Minister Itamar Ben-Gvir along with representatives from Israel’s Prison Service, will travel to several nations that still apply capital punishment, such as the United States.

The Idaho Department of Correction is currently renovating the execution chamber at the Idaho Maximum Security Institution, according to building permits from the Division of Occupational & Professional Licenses.

The change comes after the failed execution attempt of 74-year-old Thomas Creech on Feb. 28, in which the medical team could not establish an IV line to carry out his execution by lethal injection. The department called off his execution.

“The tolerance to having our speech minutely curated by professional bodies would have seemed absurd a mere six years ago. Are we being broken in a systematic way to tolerate more control?” [56]

She warns we are facing “the reframing of speech as something ‘owned’ by those who regulate access to work and professions”. [57] “The organizations can strip the initiative from individuals to do anything other than conform”. [58]

“I suggest that these subordinate organizations are linking together internationally to form the foundations of a new transnational form of government”. [59]

We are seeing “the unfolding of tyranny” [60], Miron says, and potentially heading into a “global monolithic system that is not acting in our interests. [61]

A third clue is the rainbow flag which, whatever its original or apparent meaning, “has become the symbol of globalist authority, power, and omnipotent oppression”. [76]

Miron remarks: “There isn’t a post, stick, crosswalk or architectural item that can’t now benefit from a rainbow…

“To deny access to a full rainbow in every concrete mile must be a violation of human rights codes. And none of this appears the least bit authoritarian and frightening”. [77]

The rainbow also happens to be the “unofficial” symbol of the judeo-supremacist Noahide Laws – supposedly given by the Jewish god to Noah, as a rainbow marked the end of the Flood.

The first source of Jewish supremacy has its roots in the Zionist movement, but the second is grounded in certain theological positions within Rabbinical Judaism. We are not suggesting that all forms of Judaism equate to Jewish supremacy and recognize the diversity of voices within Judaism, but in many rabbinical schools of thought this notion is dominant. There is a fundamental principle in most interpretations of Rabbinical Judaism that distinguishes between Jews and non-Jews. For example, the Halakha (Jewish law) places non-Jews in a completely different legal system called the Noahide Laws (named after the Sons of Noah). A number of Rabbinical Jewish thinkers have argued that these laws are universal for all non-Jews, and if non-Jews living under Jewish territory do not accept them, they may be subjected to capital punishment. And if non-Jews do accept the Noahide Laws they must pay tribute to the Jewish authority.

This distinction, between Jews and non-Jews, in the rabbinical legal system is based on a more foundational theology of election. According to some Jewish theologians, Jews have a divine nature which is determined by blood alone and not by faith or actions. Others have gone as far as to suggest that the Jewish soul is greater than that of a non-Jewish soul. Following this logic, many religious Jews view themselves as spiritually superior to non-Jews who are the pioneers of God’s will on earth.

It is important to note that Rabbinical Judaism has become more hostile to Christians in recent history. According to Karma Ben Johanan, a scholar of Jewish-Christian relations, a number of rabbis have expressed more and more hostile remarks towards Christians ever since the establishment of the State of Israel. She argues that the reason for the increase of hostility is due to the change in power dynamics between Judaism and Christianity. That is to say, Jews are no longer subjected to Christian authorities and have their own country. As such, they are free to voice their opinions and to dictate their own governance. Either way, this increase in hostility follows a religious notion of Jewish supremacy.

FROM the Jewish Sewer to the Star of David Cesspool…

Drowning in the waste of Israeli settlers/ Some 19 million cubic metres of wastewater from Israeli settlements flows through the occupied West Bank each year.

BREAKING: The WEF is Being “Epsteined”

The truth is – also almost unbelievable – they have been chosen precisely for their pedophile psychopathy – to become heads of state or Prime Ministers, Ministers, or even kings, queens and princesses (see Denmark’s princess affiliation with Epstein and the defamed Prince of the UK), because they are “weak” and will be easily manipulatable – or else.

Obedience by Blackmail. The reigning sick elite behind the curtains, the multi-billionaires – needs such people to control the world, to control everything, with the latest tools, full digitization of humanity, of money – the prison, the Gulag, from where there is no escaping.

Why? — These people are deeply sick, like an alcoholic, just much-much worse. Once they are hooked on power and money, they need more and more. Controlling the world, parts of the world, is POWER.

Who identifies and selects them? – Another good question. Most likely the Tavistock Institute and /or DARPA (Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency), attached to the Pentagon. There are more of such secret services throughout the world. They have 100-plus years of research experience in manipulation and brainwashing of people, and societies.

So, almost all of our so-called leaders (sic) have been selected by the nameless elite of money and power which pulls the strings and calls the shots.

You may legitimately ask: what about our democratic elections? – Forget democracy. It never really existed, not even in Greece, where this political system was apparently invented some 2,500 years ago. What was invented by an elite was that the educated elite was able to vote – men only !!! – No women, and no laborers. That was “democracy” – and has been transported as a highly convenient propaganda tool for the west. Today it functions similarly as 2,500 years ago. Leaders (sic, again) are implanted, because they serve the string-pullers agenda.

Epstein was one of those instruments, a Zionist Jew, working for Mossad, the CIA and MI6 – the infamous trio working almost always in unison. — Peter Koenig, Feb 09, 2026

Heresy. That’s what you get punished for, not for being part of the resistance, because officially there is no resistance.

[Figure 1: Mind control: From nazis to DARPA. Dachau concentration camp, it was one of the first places where mind control programs started. (Left) Alberto Sabogal Hospital is the main place where DARPA is developing illicit and forced human experimentation with brain nanobots, microchips to execut mind control (Right).]

The basic ideas of mind control originated in 1921, in Tavistock, a research center of the British Intelligence Service, and then they were developed in Germany, mainly during Nazi government. Since 1943, German military physicians working at the concentration camps Dachau and Auschwitz experimented with barbiturates, morphine derivatives, and mescaline for interrogation purposes [5].

Mescaline a psychotic alkaloid that occurs naturally in the Mexican peyote cactus was the main drug that Nazi scientists used. Experiments with mescaline were realized in Auschwitz and then they were repeated in Dachau. Dachau was the first Nazi concentration camp opened and it is known for the Nazi experiments of Hypothermia [6]. In Dachau, the experiments of mind control with mescaline were conducted by Dr Kurt Plötner, who joined the SS as a physician in the 1930s [7].

According to Walter Neff, a prisoner’s nurse involved in experiments at Dachau, the goal was: “to eliminate the will of the person examined” [5]. After “research” on 30 inmates, Plötner concluded, that mescaline was “too unreliable to be a truth drug”. Sometimes it worked; sometimes it didn’t [5].

Plötner’s work in the concentration camps came to the attention of American intelligence, the United States Navy’s intelligence officers recruited to Plötner in 1945, permitting him to continue his interrogation research. Really, US army developed a big operation, the Operation Paperclip; the secret intelligence program to bring Nazi Scientists to America [8] thus recruited too many Nazi scientists who experienced in prisoners of Dachau after the end of World War II. In fact, Plötner was never indicted for his mescaline experiments [9], he enjoyed particular protection. Plötner proceeded to live under the name of “Schmitt” in Schleswig-Holstein into the early 1950s.

Mind Control: From Nazis to DARPA

Recent researches lead to suspect that the Zombie apocalypse promoted by CDC and US army would really be a world mind control epidemic using brain nanobots [28], camouflaged as a “viral” epidemic and organized by CDC itself and the US Army. There is also strong suspect that US government would be doing a secret dissemination of brain nanobots in the entire world, “a pandemic of brain nanobots” [3,28]. Researches that CDC and US army have not denied. The election of Mexico in the TV series about the origin of the zombie epidemic is probably not just fiction; it is probably that thousands of Mexicans are being victims of a secret administration of brain nanobots for develop mind control [28].

Israelis are bold and visionary, passionate and generous. But they can also be grandiose and self-absorbed. Emerging from the depths of Jewish history and the drama of the Zionist rebellion against it, they have a deeply conflicted identity. They are willing to sacrifice themselves for the collective, but also to sacrifice that very collective for a higher, and likely unattainable, ideal. Resolving these internal conflicts and coming to terms with the trauma of the Holocaust are imperative to Israel’s survival as a nation and to the stability of the world. Alon Gratch, a clinical psychologist whose family has lived in Israel for generations, is uniquely positioned to confront these issues. Like the Israeli psyche that Gratch details, The Israeli Mind is both intimate and universal. Intelligent and forthright, compassionate but sometimes maddening, it is an utterly compelling read. Drawing on a broad cultural and historical canvas, and weaving in the author’s personal and professional experience, The Israeli Mind presents a provocative, first-hand portrait of the Israeli national character.

The Big Picture: How Israel Won the West examines how Israel has come to occupy such a privileged and protected place in the Western world. It traces the journey of the Jewish people from biblical stories of origin through centuries of persecution and the advent of Zionism, all the way to the creation of Israel and its ensuing occupation of the Palestinian territory. Along the way, what is revealed is a process of transformation, of how Jews went from being despised by early Christians as “Christ killers” – seeding a vile anti-Judaism that would mutate into anti-Semitism – to being considered part of the white Western world, sharing a common Judeo-Christian heritage.

The film lays bare the alignment of Zionism with “Western civilisation”, deliberately putting it in opposition to the people of the east – Arabs, Muslims. This would lay the foundations for an Israel where Arab Jews would be marginalised and European Ashkenazi Jews would dominate and go on to become the bedrock of support for right-wing governments and ultra-right nationalists.

What becomes apparent is the century-old policy, first outlined by Ze’ev Jabotinsky, that only force could impose Zionism and beat Palestinians into accepting the reality of colonisation.

Maintaining the imposition of this settler-colonial reality would require a “special relationship” between Israel and the United States. It would be fostered not just by US geostrategic interests in the Middle East but also facilitated by the “whitening” of Jews in the American and Western imagination, folding them into an opportunistic Judeo-Christian identity that excluded Arabs. This deliberate positioning of an “us” and a “them” has served to legitimise Israel’s occupation of the Palestinian territory and the massacre of Palestinian people, all under the umbrella and support of the Western world order.

The horror of Israel’s war on Gaza is clear for all the world to see. More than 40,000 people are dead, the majority of them women and children, killed in the name of “self-defence” by Israeli forces on a mission to “destroy” Hamas after the attacks of October 7, 2023. We are witnessing, in plain sight, an unfolding genocide. And yet Israel continues its war. Its mission creeping into Lebanon, where more civilians are killed as Israel targets Hezbollah. All this is playing out with the full support of the West as Israel claims to be fighting on behalf of Western civilisation and against “human animals” in a battle between the Judeo-Christian world and “barbarians” – a contrived narrative long in the making.

The 21st century’s most criminal evil state, the Jewish state #Israel has installed more gates around #Palestinian towns and cities in the West Bank in order to lay siege to them whenever it feels like it.

The world looks on and does nothing while the genocide in Gaza continues.

Israel was booed at the Olympics yesterday. Good time to remind you that the entire team is made up of IDF troops. Here is my full investigation.

Meet Israel’s Olympic Team: The IDF Soldiers Who Support Genocide

Israeli Olympic athletes competing in Paris are soldiers in the Israeli Defense Forces. Many have called for genocide in Gaza, or expressed support for the IDF. So why are the IOC and FIFA silent?

NBC appears to cut crowd’s booing of JD Vance from Winter Olympics broadcast

  • Vice-president given hostile reception by some in Milan
  • US broadcast cuts out crowd’s show of dissent
  • IOC calls for ‘fair play’ after jeers for Vance, Israeli athletes
  • This is the end for us all, man oh man:

Open Letter to the US Environmental Protection Agency about glyphosate and the International Monsanto Tribunal


Executive Summary

Monsanto and CropLife America paid in advance for the FAO/WHO/JMPR decision that glyphosate was non-carcinogenic and non-genotoxic. The same Chairman, Vice-Chairman and Rapporteur Member State Federal Pesticides Risk Assessment (BfR) were present at the FAO/WHO/JMPR in 2002 and made an identical decision.

Both CLA and Monsanto were very aggressive and impatient in their letters August 24/26 respectively because Monsanto had just had an invitation to attend the International Monsanto Tribunal launched by civil society to be held in The Hague October 14-16 2016. A selection of Monsanto’s victims and their lawyers were going to appear before five judges (one of whom had been a judge in the International Criminal Court) and describe how Monsanto had violated their human rights.

The Dow AgroChemical submission also talked about the FAO/WHO/JMPR decision.
However, the Bradford-Hill (1965) ‘causality criteria’ was mentioned in support of their claim that glyphosate was not carcinogenic to humans. Bradford Hill causality criteria cannot be applied in this context. It can only be applied to human diseases…for example the link between smoking and lung cancer.

On October 4 2016, CropLife America wrote to EPA to demand any scientist who had ever expressed an opinion against glyphosate be excluded from the FIFRA Scientific Advisory Panel. The specifically mentioned two names. EPA immediately bowed to that request and delayed the date of the SAP to find further ‘epidemiologists’ approved by industry.

In the evidence from the Monsanto Tribunal, the truth is there for the world to see
The US EPA, the European Food Safety Authority, the European Commission, the UK
Chemicals Regulation Directorate and the Republic of Ireland have been conspiring with Monsanto against civil society to destroy the environment with chemicals and poison their food. These countries have sustained over the years the largest loss of biodiversity, i.e. ecocide. In the International Criminal Court in The Hague, ignorance is no defence.

Nnimmo Bassey at the opening said: “Being an ambassador to this Tribunal is like being an ambassador to mother Earth. If mother Earth could speak, Monsanto ought to be in jail long before now. Food is a celebration, it is culture, it is life. This is a struggle not against one multinational corporation, it is a struggle for life, it is a struggle for liberty. A struggle to stop big companies from colonizing our food systems, colonizing our agriculture, holding mother Earth as a slave for their profits.”

The fucking JEWS:

Behold, 404 Media’s Super Bowl ad. Yes, we bought a Super Bowl ad. No, we did not spend $8 million.

Until now, 404 Media has never done any paid advertising, but we figured why not get in on the country’s biggest ad extravaganza with a message about our journalist-owned, human-focused media company. There are tons of ads for AI and big tech this year, so how about some counter programming?

On a whim last week, we began looking into purchasing a Super Bowl ad for as little money as possible, by finding a local station willing to air our ad. We knew this was possible because in 2015, The Verge bought a Super Bowl ad that aired only in Helena, Montana, for a cost of $700. Inspired by them, we did the same this year.

After googling “smallest TV markets in the United States,” we came across KYOU, which serves the city of Ottumwa, Iowa: population ~25,000. There were other options, but we thought we would try Ottumwa and see if anyone responded or if this seemed like a fool’s errand. We emailed KYOU to see if we could buy a Super Bowl ad, and we got an immediate answer: There was one slot left, and it would cost $2,550. They also had a slot immediately after the game for $1,250, one during the Olympics following the game for $500, or pregame slots for $500. It felt important to have the ad actually run during the game, so we paid the $2,550 in-game slot.

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GIRALDI: Heart of darkness — Israel’s government is completely evil

Feb 08, 2026

BY PHILIP GIRALDI

It is not for nothing that most of the world both abhors and condemns Israeli behavior, whether it be measured by the never-ending genocide in Gaza or the similarly driven terrorizing and deportation of the Palestinian population on the West Bank.

Israel is intent on taking full control of historic Palestine and is willing to do whatever it takes to bring that about, and, unfortunately, the United States has been its all too often enthusiastic accomplice in that effort.

Beyond that, Israel has bombed and otherwise killed its neighbors in Lebanon and Syria while also enticing Washington to join in the effort to attack Iran and bring about regime change in Tehran.

Apartheid Israel, which has declared itself legally and ethnically a Jewish state, intends to become that in reality by eliminating all non-Jews from its ever-expanding territory, and it is willing to do whatever it takes to bring that about.

There is something that is a tad peculiar about the Jewish state’s sense of identity in that it does not regard killing those who are non-Jews by any means possible as either a crime or, more to the point, as a sin in spite of the prohibition included in its own Ten Commandments.

Nor does Israel consider any agreements it enters into with other countries to be in any way binding on it and its leaders, witness the regular violation of the two ceasefires that Tel Aviv has entered into over Gaza, or its behavior regarding similar arrangements with neighbors Lebanon and Syria.

In Lebanon and Syria, Israel is currently spraying “unidentified”, though apparently toxic chemicals on farmland near the border to drive away local residents through destruction of their livelihoods. Israel does what Israel does, and the United States, which was a guarantor of all the ceasefires as well as of the ongoing peace process, never says a word when Israel breaks the agreements and goes about killing more local inhabitants.

Israel’s latest ploy is to bring about a United States attack on Iran to destroy that country’s ability to strike Israel, making the Jewish state by default the regional dominant military and political power.

Israel reportedly convinced Donald Trump not to attack Iran several weeks ago because there was concern that Iran would, as part of its defense, attack targets inside Israel that had the ability to support the American effort.

In other words, Israel was seeking a solution to Iran that would not put itself at risk and would instead put the onus on the United States. One might point out that this is hardly the appropriate behavior for a country that is repeatedly praised as Washington’s “best friend and closest ally.” It is anything but that while Trump and the politicians are either too stupid or corrupted to realize that, or too intimidated by the Lobby, to respond as they should if the US interest were truly their priority in relation to an Iran which does not threaten America in any way.

Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu has now called for a meeting with Donald Trump for later this week, which would be the ninth meeting between the two since Trump’s inauguration, far more than with any other foreign politician. Netanyahu has asked to meet with Trump to discuss options for the ongoing indirect discussions with the Iranians. Netanyahu’s office released a statement that “The prime minister believes that all negotiations must include limiting the Iranian ballistic missiles, and ending support for the Iranian axis” of Hamas, Hezbollah and the Houthis, which Israel perceives at the principal threats against it.

In any event, it is generally conceded that Trump will do what Israel wants. Netanyahu will also be seeking a plan of action whereby the US will attack and bring about regime change in Iran while also neutralizing its offensive capabilities.

NAPOLITANO: DOES THE U.S. STILL HAVE A CONSTITUTION?

Israel, meanwhile, will stay out of the fight to avoid any damage from the Iranian arsenal. Neat, and any dead Americans resulting from that formula, most probably on U.S. bases in the Persian Gulf region, will just be the cost of doing business with Netanyahu who will be leaving from his sessions with Trump with a smile.

Netanyahu is smiling because he always wins when dealing with American presidents while simultaneously treating the United States like a bit of dirty laundry that can easily be discarded or ignored whenever it is is not useful as a source of money, weapons and protection.

Note the disregard for the damage done to the United States by the Jeffrey Epstein conspiracy which was without question a major blackmail operation up to the U.S. presidential level run by Mossad to favorably influence policies towards the Jewish state. Even now with many incriminating documents revealed there is total resistance on the part of the Trump regime and the opposition Democrats to honestly expose what was done by our “good friends” in Israel.

But I have described Israel as uniquely evil and there is plenty of evidence for that outside of its treatment of the United States of America as some kind of vassal state that is a source of money and political and military support. As observed above, Israel has never complied with any agreement that it makes with foreign countries. During the course of the current ceasefire it has blocked the entry of food or medicines while also continuing to bomb and shoot Gazans, killing close of 600, including many children. Meanwhile, far from withdrawing its army from Gaza it has increased its foothold in the Strip, occupying close to 60% of the total area as a “Yellow” security zone, presumably leaving the rest as eventually intended for the Trump Gaza Resort or for Israeli settlers who have been appearing in the area in increasing numbers and even staking out new settlements.

As a gesture to indicate some measure of compliance with the ceasefire, last week Israel agree to partially open the Rafah Crossing from Gaza to Egypt which it controls, and the first to pass through were supposed to be those Gazans suffering from injuries and wounds requiring advanced medical treatment. Something like 22,000 Gazans were registered or lined up seeking passage and a long line of ambulances from the Egyptian side were waiting to help. Israel then closed the Crossing in spite of its commitment to open it and reportedly only let 150 injured Gazans pass through it with 50 Gazans who were already in Egypt allowed to return home from the other side.

Another story making the rounds is how the Israeli military has now conceded that its multi-year offensive in Gaza has killed approximately 70,000 Gazans, a number that is being praised in some circles because it is considered an honest, though unfortunately brutal, appraisal. Some believe, however, it is meant to throw out a lower number so the real number will never be revealed.

The 70,000 number is much higher than what has appeared in the Zionist controlled western media up until now but it is far below other estimates from reliable sources like the British medical journal The Lancet that place the deaths at 186,000, with most of the bodies still buried under the rubble. Some other conservative estimates believe that fully 12% of the original 2 million Gazan population has been killed, meaning close to 240,000.

And when one speaks of how evil Israel is, there is another issue which might be considered. Israel is sometimes described as the leading country in providing resources for organ replacements, a procedure sometimes euphemized as “organ harvesting.” That appears to be true because the thousands of Palestinians who are held without charges in Israeli prisons are treated abominably, to include having their organs removed for marketing purposes if they die and even when they are still living. The evidence for that horrific behavior consists of the bodies of Palestinians that are released from prisons and given to their families for burial. Those bodies frequently have what are presumed to be their viable body organs as well as corneas or even skin removed prior to being returned. The organs are then marketed worldwide. The result is that organ donation in “Israel” is among the highest in the world, despite some religious restrictions and a relatively small population.

So I rest my case. These are not the sorts of things that countries with any sense of morality or respectability embrace. And unfortunately Israel is able to drag Donald Trump and the US Congress along with it, even making Washington do the real dirty work when it comes to confronting nations like Iran. But there are signs that the American public has become tired of the whole charade and Israel’s role in it. The litmus test will come with the handling of the situation with Iran and we should be seeing what will happen there in the next week or two.

Philip M. Giraldi, Ph.D., is Executive Director of the Council for the National Interest, a 501(c)3 tax deductible educational foundation (Federal ID Number #52-1739023) that seeks a more interests-based U.S. foreign policy in the Middle East.

Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad

The horror. The HORROR.

This fucking knee jerk goddamned woman, man, Zionist, god, we can’t dislike Jews or Judaism . . . . Cunt Cunt Cunt: Ana Kasparian!

Amid calls from right-wing lawmakers for the dismissal of Deputy Attorney General Dana Zilber, Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu’s son shared an image Thursday of the senior lawyer appearing as a character in a horror movie.

Zilber has come under fire in recent days after criticizing the so-called culture loyalty law during a Knesset committee meeting, prompting Justice Minister Ayelet Shaked to call for her to be fired.

In a Facebook post he later deleted, Yair Netanyahu shared a movie poster-style image of Zilber in a horror film titled “The Clerk: Revenge of the Deputy Attorney General,” in which she appears as a monster-like character.

Since October 7, 2023, over 71,800 Palestinians have been killed in Gaza, including at least 21,289 children, with more than 171,000 injured. Even after the fragile ceasefire of October 2025, the violence has not fully abated: airstrikes, shelling, and gunfire continue, claiming 492 more lives and injuring 1,356 in the months since. Ninety percent of Gaza’s population—1.9 million people—remains internally displaced, huddled in overcrowded, makeshift shelters that offer scant protection against winter’s bite. Reports from UNICEF and the World Health Organization highlight the toll: 11 children have died from hypothermia since the cold set in, with respiratory infections surging, preterm births rising due to maternal malnutrition and stress, and dehydration, skin diseases, and acute malnutrition afflicting half of all children. Infrastructure lies in ruins—92% of Gaza destroyed, generating 61 million tonnes of debris that could take seven years to clear under ideal conditions. Water, sanitation, and waste systems are decimated, exposing the entire population to public health crises. Food insecurity persists: though aid flows have improved post-ceasefire, prices remain exorbitantly high, unemployment exceeds 80%, and one in five households still survives on a single meal a day.

Despite almost 100 recorded deaths in custody and abundant testimonies and other evidence of severe physical abuse — including widespread sexual violence, as documented in a damning new report by the Gaza-based Palestinian Center for Human Rights — only one Israeli soldier has been prosecuted; he was sentenced in February to seven months for assaulting detainees from Gaza. Five other soldiers have been charged with aggravated abuse and causing serious bodily harm to a detainee at the Sde Teiman detention center, after footage was leaked to the Israeli media last year.

A detainee who was in the same cell as Mara’i told PHRI: “About 15 [prison] personnel attacked him, all standing around and beating him severely. The blows lasted about five minutes and focused on hitting his head.”

Sari Hurriyah, a Palestinian attorney with Israeli citizenship who was detained at the same time as Mara’i over Facebook posts, told Israel’s Channel 13 that he witnessed Mara’i’s death in the neighboring cell. “Every night, we could hear people being beaten to death, screaming,” Hurriyah said.

YOU have to be a fucking lobotomized cunt to not want the heads of Jews on Spikes. FUCKERS.

JEWS are sodomizers, just the same DNA strand of Epstein-Weinstein-Spitzer . . . name your fucking Jewish Poison!

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The Spark of Your Story, Ode to Aaron Bushnell

Our stories say water is the ultimate cleanser. It purifies; it redeems. It allows us to be born again, as from our very first, womb waters.
Water that beckons: the seduction of submergence, the hopeful re-emergence.

But, Aaron, you chose fire.

Barely older than my children. Fresh-faced like my students, some of whom attend classes dressed in fatigues like yours. Hair, the color of soft flames flickering in a fireplace. And spring-green eyes. A smile so open, it holds nothing back.

Aaron, you held nothing, but nothing, back.

When an event shakes our world, we feel compelled to pinpoint our own location at the time. We remember where we were when it happened—JFK’s assassination, 9/11, COVID-19 shelter-in-place orders. How blithely we were going about our day when, unbeknownst to us, distant but connected, everything shifted. A marvel, how each of us inhabits such separate realities. And now and then these realities collide, combust, go up in smoke.

Where was I, Aaron, when you set yourself ablaze? I calculate the time difference—your Sunday afternoon, my Sunday night on February 25, 2024—and know that I sat in a hotel room in Islamabad, savoring family photographs of a fleeting week, an hour to go before my departure for the airport. And seven hours later, when you gave us your last breath, I was suspended above the earth, somewhere between Islamabad and Doha, Qatar, blurring date lines and time zones on the long skyroad home to California. Oblivious of how the world had slid.

You outside the Israeli embassy in Washington, D.C., on that Sunday afternoon.

Two years ago, I landed in Fresno to news that my home was on fire. A fire I didn’t choose; a fire that cleansed nothing. It destroyed and displaced, though it spared life—a lifetime to sift through the ashes.
This time, I arrive home to news of you aflame. A faraway fire, yet so close it chokes. Fire that consumes the known and familiar. A bonfire of the stories we tell to coax conscience to sleep.

Memory-ash of a body that was mostly water, birthed from the mother-water a mere twenty-five years ago.
A Massachusetts baby, like my two.

Aaron, you were an aspiring software engineer. But you might have been in my English class. How well you understood the power of the story you were telling, the power of the symbol, of contexts and settings that give our actions meaning. An active duty pilot protesting his government’s complicity in genocide in a time-honored fashion. A soldier laying down his life in his own definition of patriotism. A sacrificial body, buying back its country’s conscience.
Your body, a text. Read it, you said.
You knew nothing else would make us see.
And even in the moment, you had reluctant readers. The story you were telling was not legible to the Secret Service officer who responded in the only language he knew: a gun pointed at you while you lay on the ground, afire. Ironic and absurd. All poetry lost.

But you knew not to trust your readers to interpret what you narrated with your body. Even before you livestreamed your last act—This is what our ruling class has decided will be normal—you made a Facebook post to say we needn’t wonder what we would have done to protest slavery or Jim Crow because we’re doing it right now. And in your message to alternative media, how eloquently you articulated your reasons for doing what you were about to do. Your words weren’t widely read in the country you served, but I found them in an Indian news outlet online. A series of statements beginning: I am doing this because . . . The complicity of the government, the media, the world. The complicity of you and me. A series of statements—rhythmic, incantatory—the final four sentences reinscribing your life:

I am doing this because I am a human being, and I cannot remain silent in the face of injustice. I am doing this because I am a soldier and I cannot remain loyal to a government that betrays its own values and principles. I am doing this because I am a martyr and I cannot remain alive in a world that kills the innocent and protects the guilty.
I am doing this because I am Aaron Bushnell, and this is my final act of protest.

You shouted Free Palestine! again and again. A fiery refrain, hoarse with the heat of your conviction, before the flames snuffed out your voice.
You knew nothing else would make us listen.
A seer, a storyteller.

And then our media, if it covers the news at all, spins a story about your mental health. NPR footnotes the news with “If you or someone you know . . .” and shares the number of the suicide hotline. We’re told of your isolated, fundamentalist upbringing. Your implied unhinging. A traumatic response to that early domestic trauma or this political one.
Perhaps.
But in the words of your friend, you were not ill. In the words of your friend, it’s we who are ill, to stomach the carnage we enable and not feel moved to question it.
Suicide for genocide.

Suicide, the great Abrahamic taboo. One commits it as a crime or a sin. And yet there have always been other ways to read it.
As honor: not just the Romans and World War II Kamikazes, but all the crusades and jihads, past and present, down to the everyday recruitment of college students to the military. All the hunger strikes through the ages. Even the mother who starves herself so her child may eat. When faith frames the narrative and love lifts it above the literal, we read the death-wish as a life-wish.

Self-immolation as sati in South Asia’s past, when many a Hindu widow leapt into her husband’s funeral pyre, wifely glory in grief.
Kurdish women in the present, burning for the opposite: the right to live free.
American men, to protest our scorchings of the earth.

Self-immolation as political protest, birthed at the intersection of urgency and despair. In the Buddhist tradition of Thich Quan Duc and Nhat Chi Mai, who set themselves on fire in Saigon in 1963, self-immolation is not suicide, but the highest form of sacrifice. Eighty-two-year-old Quaker Alice Herz read it that way in Detroit, Michigan, and burned at a curbside to protest the Vietnam War. Vietnam to Tibet, and Tunisia—where, in the embering days of 2010, Mohamed Bouazizi ignited the Arab Spring. Students, alight with passionate protest, self-immolating in Prague and New Delhi and La Jolla, California.

At the University of California, San Diego, my daughter points to the plaque in the ground outside her first-year dorm in Revelle Plaza: “In honor of George Winne Jr. who immolated himself in Revelle Plaza in protest of the Vietnam war in 1970. He held a sign that read ‘In the name of God, end the war.’”

A global tradition of violent nonviolent resistance.

Aaron, since your death, I, who never knew you, seek your life.
Your username, LillyAnarKitty. Your reasons for choosing it, yours alone. That’s who you were on social media, where you liked the poem “The Empire Raised Me” by Anansi’s Library and planned to recite it when you retired from the air force in a few months. Its haunting lines: “And I was raised a soldier/ Now the muzzle is at my back/ The boots are at my door/ The guns are all racked.”
Your embrace of anarchist philosophy against vertical power structures.
Your joy in robotics, like my son’s.
Lord of the Rings and Marvel and karaoke.
Your care for the homeless in San Antonio and Akron.
You loved a cat named Luna. You remembered your responsibility, bequeathed her to your neighbor. Or was that Pumpkin you left with your friend Erin, the one with a following on TikTok? Or then again, was it Sugar, white as her name, who looks up into your face as you crouch down to pet her in a tender photograph on X?

Forgive me for slamming my laptop shut when you appeared on the screen, smiling, in that green and black rugby shirt with horizontal stripes—identical to the one my boy liked so much, I bought it for him in two sizes. To see him smile in it a little longer.

You were a young white American who cared about the powerless. About what we are doing in Palestine. Palestine-Falasteen, a moral litmus test for the world, as Black activist Angela Davis has said. Angela Davis, who never got her PhD from the University of California, San Diego, because the FBI confiscated her work the same year that George Winne, Jr. self-immolated in Revelle Plaza.

You left all your savings to the Palestine Children’s Relief Fund.

You made a wish for your ashes: If a time comes when Palestinians regain control of their land, and if the people native to the land would be open to the possibility, I would love for my ashes to be scattered in a free Palestine.

A deep blue sign with white letters appears in Jericho-Ariha, in the Occupied West Bank. A street named after you.
Aaron Bushnell Street, linked to the main street in Jericho, Gateway to Palestine—among the longest continuously inhabited cities in the world.
Jericho city council member Amani Rayan tells Al Jazeera: I felt that he was familySomeone who’s so close to us, who shares our deep pain. . . . This is the ultimate sacrifice at a time when no one seems to see us.
Mayor Abdul Karim Sidr wants to bring your family to Jericho to see for themselves how your name lives on in the hearts of an ancient people.
Aaron Bushnell
A kid, a prophet.

So the Lord said to Moses, “Aaron, your brother, will be your prophet.”
Haroon in the Quran—my father’s name.
Aaron-Haroon, the Priest. The Anointed One, the one who spoke for Moses when Moses couldn’t.

Let all the stories speak to me.
The phoenix rising from the flames.
Agni, god of fire. With his two faces, benevolent and malevolent, mediating between the earth and heavens.
Let it be true that a single sacrifice can pay for our collective sins. Wash us
clean.
Baptism of fire or water, restore us to our moral bones.
Write us our redemption arc.

But how to make the story add up? To call it a fair exchange? And accept
this barter as a bargain: Aaron’s one life for all of ours.
Ask the mother who birthed that son.

You raised your boy well, I want to tell her.
Too well
, she might reply.

4 OCTOBER 2024 • By Samina Najmi

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