do not believe anything the Blinken-Yellen-Nuland-Garland-Kagan White House & the the Demon-Crats who are both Jewish and Israel-First as Joe “I Finally Have a Jewish Surgeon Son-in-Law” Biden dies!
It is a stomach sickness, this entire murder incorporated. How do you go ahead with your daily tasks?
I teach a memoir writing class. It’s community ed with the Oregon Coast Community College. People want to get down with their lives, their stories, this slice of life that is a memoir.
It is a great thing to deal with awakenings, and enlightenments, in one’s life.
+a woman whose mother took her to England when she was 16 and pregnant and she ended up having the baby in Englan and then, the mother arranged to call that child her child, so, this secret, this son (he found out at age 18) ended up my memoirist’s brother . . .
+a woman whose Irish family, from North Dakota, and around that area, kept their secrets, that alcoholic father, and the son he never knew he had, and my memoirist born late in her mother’s life, at age 48, and then all those issues tied to her own reckoning, getting into DNA tracing and geneology. . .
+a man who has lived with bi-polar disorder, who ended up in a religious cult, and know, still in his late sixities dealing with that, the anger, and he’s a poet, so he is writing vignettes wrapped around poems, dealing with his family . . .
+a woman who is here in Oregon, after living in Texas, to help her daughter (born a boy) with her transition at age 15 . . . all of that in her life, and her family’s varying POV’s and acceptance . . .
+an other 65 year old who worked a life of hard labor even though he had aspirations and talents to be an artist, and all of those family dynamics being the youngest son and disenfranchised from the famil . . .
+a man I’ve written about (Toothless in Wisconsin) who is zooming the class from Wisconsin to be part of the assignments, and his life story, and his memoir upon memoir touch upon so much in his life . . .
Here, over at my locked other Substack — Man Lost of Tribe: Terminal Velocity,
Something More than the Cheese/first of three parts . . . what’s love got nothing to do with it in Wisconsin
Through the Looking Glass — Meth, Fentynal, Unbelievable Dread of Living in Wisconsin
Dual Diagnosis: The ‘Other’ America Failing/ third part of this disharmony on ‘What’s Wisconsin got to do with us/U$A?’
Would You Leave Your Pet Monkey Alone with this Guy? . . . a few more photos of the Wisconsin for ‘This is Your Life’ Bullshit! … a 10-part series now (goddamn, I hope not!)
+and more people and their stories . . . memoirs
But it’s tough getting through this time, these ugly Jewish End Times, these Genocidal Torah and Talmud Times, and no matter what one says in support of Gazans, babies, mothers, nursing mothers, those in Gaza and the West Bank, the Jews (they call themselves Zionists, but they are Jews) call us, sub-Jews, unworthy of full autonomy, agency, thinking, humanity, legal status, until we too are the animals they have caged in Gaza.
Just listen to two women, here, and forget about all the men yammering and yammerng about Oct. 7 and this genocidal murder campaing. Listen here:
Watch here:
Here, close to my heart — revolution and writing:
Amid Israel’s brutal bombing of Gaza, Palestinian icon Leila Khaled spoke about the Palestinian struggle for freedom and about the need for intensified international solidarity with Palestine. She also spoke about her history in the liberation movement and the inevitability of resistance.
I’ll be in Portland Nov. 4 for the Portland book festival. Viet will be there, and I am in contact with him, and I am using his memoir as a foundation in my class:
The USA and Israel are wedded, like Gonorrhea, like syphilis of the brain:
- The Israeli military and border police forces are killing Palestinian children with virtually no recourse for accountability.
[ Left to Right, Adam Ayyad, Wadea Abu Ramuz, Mahmoud al-Sadi, and Mohammed al-Sleem. ]
“Israeli forces are gunning down Palestinian children living under occupation with increasing frequency,” said Bill Van Esveld, associate children’s rights director at Human Rights Watch. “Unless Israel’s allies, particularly the United States, pressure Israel to change course, more Palestinian children will be killed.”
“For everyone who does wicked things hates the Light and does not come to the Light, lest his works should be exposed.” —John 3:19-21
Israel, under serial liar and war monger Netanyahu, has pummeled the Palestinians in Gaza and the Israeli military just cut all cell service and internet access to Gaza and has begun its most violent bombing campaign yet.
We are in big fucking trouble with these Israel-Firster Continuing Criminal Enterprise monsters in the driver’s seat:
His entire family, man, bats to the head:
The list of Palestinians killed in the war in Gaza stretches for more than 150 pages, at times featuring dozens of people with the same last name: Entire families have been wiped out by Israeli air attacks.
The Palestinian Health Ministry in Gaza released the list on Thursday, documenting the deaths of more than 7,000 Palestinians, including nearly 3,000 children, since the war began on October 7.
Subhumans, one and all:
[ The Biden family poses for a picture on Saturday, November 7, 2020. From left: Melissa Cohen, Hunter Biden, Beau Biden, Naomi Biden, President-elect Joe Biden, Dr. Jill Biden, Maisy Biden, Finnegan Biden, Hunter Biden, Natalie Biden, Ashley Biden, and Dr. Howard Krein. ]
The enemy of humankind:
And, so, pancaking buildings, nerve gas in the tunnels, white phosphorous, starvation, spying:
Pegasus: How a Spy in Your Pocket Threatens the End of Privacy, Dignity, and Democracy by Laurent Richard and Sandrine Rigaud, Henry Holt and Co. (2023)
Authored by Laurent Richard and Sandrine Rigaud from the investigative journalism group Forbidden Stories, Pegasus is the outcome of a probe initiated by the leak of 50,000 possible surveillance targets.
The investigation aimed to uncover the unlawful usage of Pegasus spyware against noncriminal figures, including human rights activists and journalists. Pegasus was developed by the Israeli company NSO – the initials of Niv, Shalev and Omri, its founders’ first names.
And so, spying and lying, the complete Jewish Book Ends to their Tyranny.
With Israeli airstrikes on Gaza killing at least twenty Palestinian journalists—and the Biden administration working to muzzle others—Big Tech is quietly coordinating with Tel Aviv to muzzle Palestinian media outfits.
Israeli strikes on the Gaza Strip killed three Palestinian journalists on October 25 in one of the deadliest days for local reporters since the military’s bombing campaign began nearly three weeks before. As the hours passed, footage appeared showing the moment Ramallah-based journalist Mohammed Farra learned that his wife and children were all killed in an Israeli airstrike in Gaza’s Khan Younes neighborhood.
Israel Ground Invasion Looms As Heaviest Bombardment Of Gaza Yet — Watch Richard. He says it like I SAY it.
Israel Ground Invasion Looms As Heaviest Bombardment Of Gaza Yet
War war war criminals:
Meanwhile, some students and faculty are opposing the gala and the appearance of the former secretaries of state.
- Much of the criticism stems from the inclusion of Kissinger, 100, who is known for his involvement in shaping U.S. foreign policy during the Nixon administration as the U.S. continued the Vietnam War.
Details: This week, there was an anti-war teach-in at Rice protesting the gala. There is also a petition calling for the event to be canceled that has garnered 300 signatures, as well as a protest at the university slated for tonight during the gala.
- At the teach-in, which more than 100 students, teachers and community activists attended, there were presentations on America’s history and involvement in war, how Kissinger has been involved, and the effects of the violence in Latin America and Southeast Asia.
The big picture: The gala comes as student groups are protesting U.S. involvement in the Israel-Hamas conflict.
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So, how to go on, how to frame a community education class, how to deal with this Zombie Land, this Land of Transactional Contractual Fake Humanity?
So almost 50 percent of residential units in Gaza have been destroyed. People are starving. Babies are thrown out by the Jews. Fifty-seven UN staff killed by Israel …. Three thousand children murdered. SELF-GENOCIDE, that’s what the motherfucking forked-tongue Jewish Israelis.
SO, here thought experiment:
Oprah Fucking Stain Winfrey, billion$, and remember her show (is it still on TV?). Imagine, hiring me for, say a few hundred thousand a year, and I’d deliver 12 short documentaries (she’s gotta pay for that crew) and I’d help 12 people write their memoirs. Books. Twelve of them in 18 months.
Think of that. A fifty year old and she has an 11 year old with seven or eight major physical and intellectual disabilities, crippled, crawling around with arms, and a mental capacity of 11 months old and diapers and pounding his own head from time to time. And the other son, 14, a highly intelligent austistic child, home schooled, and here we are, a life, trapped, but not trapped, and how do thiese people go on and on? Her husband dropped out of parenting.
There’s one little slice of life that the billionaires and the product advertisers and the others in that celebrity cultism, boy oh boy, what a memoir they might have to absorb. And Oprah would be there, having ME do the interview, with a few little pines in from the billionaire.
I’ve got 11 more easily — lives and dreams deferred, lives in upheaval, lives torn by the criminal injustice system, through all the systems of oppression, all the ins and outs of a brutal society. And they still hang on. Still keep going.
- homeless veteran who has read three thousand books in the past 5 years and has been in the woods for six years
- shut in hoarding woman with seven dogs and she used to be a concert violinist
- tiny home community of six homes working on agricultural centered living — those are six separate narratives, memoirs, each one totally unique, in the slipstream of the world, of the world that is NOT Oprah-Landia and LaLaLandia.
- ex-pro footballer who has been in prison, who has dealt with TBI and drug addiction and who is looking for his granddaughter
- woman fisher who ended up sexually harassed on a fishing boat in Alaska, and she is now fighting with a lawyer and her own shift in her 35 year old life
- goddamn, so many stories that need to be in the national consciousness, on TV, in movies . . .
- you want a tap dancer’s story?
“Listen to my feet, and I will tell you the story of my life.” — John Bubbles, father of rhythm tap
I’m looking at Michael Mailloux’s artwork at the Waldport Chamber. Bright primitive images with golfing themes. All are whimsical, dreamy but simple and childlike. He hands me a booklet, a story of his own rebirth into a spiritual being. “The Dream” tells the reader about a series of nightmares that brought him to surrender to Christ.
My story is about a 69-year-old man who’s struggled with identity and an obsession to be a dancer. He’s a veritable ground-truthing encyclopedia of the art of hoofing.
His walkabout comes with a diverse set of characteristics:
• growing up in San Francisco, Guam and West Virginia with four sisters;
• hyperactive kid who flunked a few grades and never could sit still to read;
• a 6-foot, 2-inch basketball player with ADHD;
• a passion to learn from the best tap dancers;
• interrupted dreams of Broadway musical fame;
• shy white guy jumping into a world of African-American hoofers;
• years scraping by living in odd places;
• 20 years in California teaching dancing to women’s clubs and others;
• struggles with depression/hope rolled up in a simple conjoining of Jesus Christ’s philosophy.
“The message is simple. Like he said, the word of God should be understood by a child. All these religions and denominations are filled with laws, complications.”
He’s willing to critique Christianity, as it has played out throughout history and in our current times, as materialistic and judgmental. “I believe we have a duty not to judge people.” His bedrock is simple: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.
We first met at the chamber, quickly diving into current events, philosophy and psychology — the lockdowns, Sartre, Hermann Hess, Carl Jung, Dante. Consequently, I decided to pen a feel-good New Year’s story with Michael at its center.
The beauty of being a writer is I spelunk into lives far afield from our own. After almost half a century of doing this, I have intersected with thousands of people. Sometimes the process takes minutes, or hours in the case of Michael.
Three hours later, I have a notepad filled with dates, names, places, a life.
He and his wife, Kate, have lived near Ona Beach for one-and-a-half years, after two decades in Arroyo Grande (near Pismo Beach, Calif.). He donates his time to such projects as Grace Wins Haven in Newport.
Ain’t Misbehavin’
Eddie Brown, Baby Lawrence, Bubba Gains, Duke Ellington, Gregory Hines, Bill Robinson (Bojangles), Buster Brown, Charles Cookie Cook, Honi Coles, Bunny Briggs, and so many other major/minor characters in the tap dancing scene have influenced this nimble guy, who has crisscrossed the United States, from LA, Las Vegas, West Virginia, Florida, Arizona, New York.
It was after two years in the Army (ending in Alaska) that he came back to Helvetia, W.Va., and announced to his mother he wanted to be a tap dancer.
“After I left Fort Richardson I did one semester at Davis and Elkins College on the GI Bill. I went home for the summer and helped my mom in her restaurant. I came down the stairs one day and said, ‘I want to be a tap dancer.’”
He learned the basics of tap dancing from 74-year-old Mary Elizabeth Fassig in Wheeling, W.Va. He landed a $50 a month room and worked as a short-order cook and dishwasher at a hospital. He majored in speech and theater at West Liberty College, and by chance, Mary was choreographing the play, “Yankee Doodle Dandy,” and invited Michael on a trip to New York to see four Broadway shows.
“The first Broadway show I ever saw was ‘A Chorus Line.’ When the show was over and I walked out and saw all the people, the bright lights, I told myself, ‘I’m coming to New York.’”
He did, and landed at the American Academy of Dramatic Arts. “I had no money and stayed at the YMCA.” He eventually connected with a member of the 12th Night Club (founded in 1891). Michael lived above the Carnegie Deli.
He met a young guy, Bernard Manners, who was dancing with the Legendary Hoofers. These middle aged tap dancers rehearsed at Jerry LeRoy Studio. “My eyes opened wide like globes,” Michael said after witnessing rhythm time steps. While he takes his hat off to Fred Astaire and Gene Kelly, he credits the “Black styling of tap” for his own passion.
Any journalist worth his salt researches, even for a short piece. Readers can find “Tap Dance in America: A Short History,” by Constance Valis Hill, instrumental for background. Check out the book by the same author, “A Contest of Beat and Feet, Tap Dancing America: A Cultural History.”
Michael has worked cleaning furniture in a rental business, developed film at the Las Vegas Hilton, worked in a Turkish restaurant/rehearsal studio — Fazil’s. He was even the Tap Dancing Car Salesman in California.
It was at Fazil’s where he saw the Copasetics practice their steps.
The root of his obsession is Baby Lawrence, who he never met in person, but for which Michael constantly practiced using a tape of one of his records to imprint upon him all the right moves and steps.
One of the biggest regrets Michael has is the fact the Black hoofers didn’t take him into their fold professionally. “All I wanted to do was dance. When Bunny Briggs told me I reminded him of Baby Lawrence, I knew I was onto something.”
He never made it on the Great White Way, laughing how he auditioned for a part in the musical, “42nd Street.” “I was too tall for the chorus.”
In synch
Several events in his life stick: When he was heading for a show at the Bowery Lane Theater, he ran into a well-dressed fellow outside. “He told me he was a doctor whose wife had just left him. I felt so much sadness.”
He repeats this story with tears in his eyes: “I wish I had taken him to a shelter for a warm meal and place to stay. For selfish reasons I wanted to go to the tap dance gig.”
Another story is from the Big Apple, when he spotted a Puerto Rican boy who found a leaf on the ground. His mother was in a hurry and yelled at the son to come along. “He wanted to put the leaf back onto the tree. What love he showed for that tree because it lost a leaf.”
Michael struggled with depression and lots of mood swings. While he says his wife, Kate, is the key person in his life, he still recalls the power of his mother: “My mother raised five children barely one year apart in age. When we moved to West Virginia, our family lived in a hunting cabin with no electricity, running water or bathroom. Mom cooked our meals on a large wood-burning stove, and it was our only heating source through the cold winter months. She would heat the water so we could bathe in a metal boiler tub.”
He tells me he’s grateful for authentic fellowship. He and his wife struggle on two social security checks. However, his faith leads him to believe good things will come to him. His dream is to help the homeless and those without means of support. He calls this project Getting in Synch — Serve Your Needy Community.
Tap dancing and song are still part of his life. He penned and choreographed a musical, “That Rhythm Thing.” He’s currently tweaking it. The play is about artists and dancers who came to New York to follow their dreams, but like in most cases, the starving artist stumbles. They are in Central Park, in a tent city, supporting each other with anything they have.
He beats out a rhythm and shows me some steps. I’ll finish with lyrics from Copasetics Chair Dance:
When you feel blue,
The best you can do
Is tell yourself to forget it,
Life’s a funny thing
It’s really great when you sing,
And everything will be copasetic …
Never look down,
Chin up and don’t frown,
Don’t let life get pathetic.
Show a happy face to the whole human race,
And everything will be copasetic …
I got hundreds of stories, Oprah!
Paul Haeder, Author 